I have been frustrated for a very long time, but I’ve try to just be patient. Wait for Mike to make the final decision. The first time this situation happened it took nearly 2 years to make our ‘move’. Then this situation happened a second time… and now it is happening a third time. I am trying still to be patient. Let the Lord speak to Mike. He is the head of this house.
I try to ask God, “What is it that YOU want us to do?” For some reason I have been having a hard time hearing His answer, which makes this situation very difficult on me.
I keep questioning Him…
“Did you want us to stay ‘put’ 2 years ago when we moved into a new ‘home’?”
“Was it YOU who said ‘go back' to where you came from & shed some light?”
During that time period I felt very heavy. I felt like we were NOT listening to you & were pressured to move back. I was not happy.
Then after a while I gave in & thought…
“Ok God, maybe this was YOU that moved us back – even though I am not happy about it – maybe there is a purpose. Who are we supposed to reach?”
Now I am not so sure.
Maybe it was ‘just for a time’ and now our work is done. We did touch a few. We tried. It is over though. It’s time to move on. But ‘on’ to what?
This is what I am not sure of… and what I am impatient for. I want to know His plan for us & I want to know NOW. Where He wants us to go. We know what we were called to do… but where do we do His work?
TELL ME LORD, HERE I AM!
Amongst the heaviness.. this chapter coming to an end.
Amongst this heaviness, I feel peace.
Whatever is in store for us… it will be GOOD.
Please pray for Mike & I – that we go where the Lord wants us.